Now for my confession. I cheated 4 years ago. But the difference is, I wanted to stay with my wife and work it out, and she agreed. It was a rough journey for us both. I could never have felt the way she did, unless she did the same thing. Now I know, and it is the absolute worst feeling anyone could have. I can't eat or sleep, and my stomach feels like it is being twisted into knots. If I could go back in time .