i was married at 19 and had a within a year. Just like you I ignored every single warning sign when we dated. i was and wrapped up in the excitement of women want sex dating my first. There are ALWAYS warning signs. I played the game for 7 years with him and it never got better. Yes, it did escalate to physical and I even blew that off, saying it way "only' a shove or "just" a slap upside the head. You are being, just as I was my my first husband. He is not going to change or get better. You need to leave immediately. Go to a shelter, go to a family member, get on a bus and leave town. File for divorce and custody as as you leave. Get yourself some counseling. If you do not get counseling you're going to be carrying this with you into all your future relationships. good luck.