I worry about my weight, cause of the diabetes, but, thats because i'm not doing the right things, all the time. i notice when i get stressed, and I stop and ask for the fears to be, and ask for direction. my spitual beliefs have replaced my worry wart ways. I do relax and take time to chill. so that i don't get tooo stressed. i don't watch alot of tv, maybe an hour in the morning. if i have time, as i'm mediatating before I really get my day started. I read comics. (which i'll go get tomorrow.) i worry less, as i'm not trying to make things go my way all the time; bad things have happned to me. i hate the dentist, but i have to go, i hate going to the doctors, but if i don't, how do i know if there's a problem. i have more accpetance today, then worry. all i have to do is the next right thing. be grateful for what i have right now, were I am and notice, how good i really do got it!!!

Sexuality- I always felt it was fairly self explanatory, My sexuality rises the deeper in to a power exchange I go. My sexuality is only love in willingdon empowered by the willingness of an eager slut waiting to abide by a single command. "Spread your legs." Or my favorite, simply, "knees". And watching her move in to position, ly, and succinctly. To know that her body is my playground, is an immense turn on. To have her naked body wracked with pain, aching for release my cock swells at the very thought. Emotions- This is a crucial point I feel for my dominance. If I feel nothing for her, how can I control her, and dominate her, and take over aspects of her life? I can't, simply. I think that with anything as intimate as the power exchange, or even just fuck buddies. Emotions play a key role in how vulnerable a submissive feels towards their dominant. To how a dominant feels attachment to his submissive to offer aftercare, which is in and of it's self a bonding experience. If I feel nothing towards my submissive, I might as well be whipping a wall. When I inflict that pain, and hear her screams, my arousal happens, not of the body, but of the spirit. It then spreads from my soul, to my heart, to my, and finally to my body. It rises quickly, and it makes my adrenaline rush, and it makes me want to ride the wave of control with a flogger in my hand. If I don't have that commitment that I give her, then I'd rather have nothing at all, and be a frustrated wreck.