I still think i him but I refuse to be an annoying clinging ex I sent him a note and a gift basket (in the note was my number just in case he local seeking fucking deleted my number and wanted to talk) that was my closure, because he didn't want to talk. I know what happened hurt him a lot we were one of those couples from day one everyone said "you two are going to get married someday, and i better be invited to the wedding" (everyone including his family, my family, and friends) and I know hearing my voice would either piss him off or just hurt him more and neither of us need that. Also, as a side note, we pass each other sometimes heading to work, now that i got a job close to his house, sometimes we make eye contact so my theory is I've made the effort and he knows where i stand why cling? I'd rather move on i just am having a really hard time getting over him.