That's what it boils down to isn't it. You don't have experience so you've decided to put off getting more. PD, get out there and get social fuck dating, I didn't get a date Saturday night, couples wants flirt I 'struck out'. I just don't care that much, that's the only difference and you're not awkward here are you and you talk to women the real world is the same way. I don't talk to just women I want to date, I'll talk to women of all shapes and sizes, nothing wrong with having a good conversation with someone you aren't really interested in dating. There's lots of different places are great to meet women, I ripped up my back bad, I've had 3 surgeries in the past so I joined a yoga class class is about 10 to 1 women to men, I have made friends of the instructors, classmates of all shapes and sizes why not? Haven't dated any of them. Saw one of the guys out on Saturday and sat at his table for a bit and talked to him and a bunch of gals he was out with there you go. No date, but new friends. And as far as your statement of 'I'm glad it's easy for you' bite me. What an arrogant statement, what a selfish statement it's NOT easy to put yourself out there and risk rejection, I'm just willing to do it and you're not. I open myself up to insults, rude statements, being told no thanks and being hurt. I've been hurt, rejected and insulted yet I keep going. What I've learned is to embrace the best parts of me AND to the best of my ability, the good parts of others. You want to focus on your negatives then you're never going to feel like you're worthy, never. No surgery is going to change that. Learning it wasn't easy PD, it was hard. I did things like take dance lessons so I wouldn't feel like a dork swing dancing, I went down to where they teach free classes alone, I was nervous but I willed myself to have a good time. You've got a lot of very good qualities and if that's not enough to sustain you then it never. The experience is gained by learning how to be the best you when you're not trying to get a date, when there's no reward for you other than a talk with another human being. And you're going to get rejected by some, no doubt and you're going to have to chose to not let it bother you. And that is never easy so quit thinking there's some magic you don't have.