that officially breaking up would change the xxx lady seeking nsa fact that my feelings are still scattered like stars across the sky pieces breaking into smaller pieces into smaller pieces into smaller pieces like broken glass. They are still sharp. I wanted to stop hurting people. I wanted to stop hurting myself. And so I told my partner that I couldn't be the girlfriend he wants and needs right now, becos of my feelings for her feelings that weren't going away. But, I'm finding it equally impossible to make my feelings for him go away. And now we are all faced with the awkward logistics of the future. He and I live together in a very cute apartment with all of the things we own melding into joint ownership, and two dogs who hate to be separated, and a bed too big for one person. And friends that us both and are bound to be shocked and confused. And I don't want him to move out right yet, becos that's too scary to anticipate. And all along this past year I thought he would be my forever. My head and my heart had it all planned out and it was fucking beautiful. God, being human is fucked up.